I hate chasing perfection. I hate half-heartedly chasing what could be. Or what was. I hate that I’m so hard on myself. I hate that I can’t breathe. I hate that I’m even writing this. Again. How many ‘fresh start’ posts have you seen from me over the past 2 years? More than I’d like to admit to writing.
So, what happened 2 years ago? Well, exactly two years ago everything was great actually. I was in my groove – typing away, sharing my life, thoughts and struggles with you. It was great. Until I decided to expand my blog. Upgrade it, if you will.
I had a fantastic team build me a completely new site where I was in charge of everything and could do anything I could ever dream of. Except that it didn’t work for me. At all. I think I felt like I needed to up my game with that new site. Be more professional. Look for ways to make this into my job. Basically I lost the ‘why’ i was writing.
And I’ve not been able to get it back. I moved my blog back, hoping it would help. It didn’t. I’ve tried to start anew, hoping it would help. It hasn’t.
This is my last attempt. I want my ‘why’ back. I want to share my life, thoughts, struggles and triumphs with you. I love writing about my beauty boxes and all that. But it’s a relatively small part of my life. I mean, I get 2 beauty boxes a month. I think that says it all.
So… if you’ve been here from the beginning, thank you for your continued support. If this is the first post you’ve read on this blog, hi! But now I’m going to pretend you’re not reading what I write for a while, I think. To get my ‘why’ back. I guess it’ll be quite obvious if I succeed or not.